112 Days Dowm... 44 To Go... Gosposha (Mrs) Angry, Gorna Oryahovitsa & Poor Scruffy Boy Reggie

Well its been a while almost 3 weeks as I have been in a very bad place, very angry & feeling abandoned. Now my level headed side tells me that’s not true but my emotions which have gone into overdrive are telling me lies. Problem I am not hearing what I need to hear, I am not amongst loved ones & people are going out of their way to anoy me, at least that’s how it feels!!!
So 2/3rds of the way through & not long now, as long as nothing else goes wrong, 6 1/2 weeks till hubby is back home :D We will be very poor but happy! I'm not bothered about being poor, crikey I have spent most of my life with nothing, well nothing but bills that couldn't be paid! For 3 years I had £15 a week to feed clothe buy toiletries for myself & my children & clean the house an impossible task which was very depressing!!!! Lived off pasta :-( So this at least will be better than that, even when we can't afford meat I make a mean potato soup! As long as we have wood to keep warm money to pay the tok & voda & a gas bottle we will be OK!
Even better would be Nigel having renovation work to keep us ticking over financialy so we don't have to go through this again, he is already thinking about "next time", me that makes me want to give up!!!!! I'm fortunate that I was only well off for a few years not enough to have gotten used to it :D
Yes I am at the, had more than enough stage now, feeling like I can't cope on my own any longer but then I have felt like that a lot so I know I can, I just don't want to!!!!!!!
I must end this bit on the possitive, I LOVE LIVING IN BULGARIA, so please don't get me wrong when I moan :D This is the life we have chosen for this stage of our lives & we love our house even in this state as we see & feel the potential. I love having all this property! I don't want more as the people we know that has loads of ground can't do anything with it, so whats the point? & less would not be enough for what we want to do in the future :D  So love this house & property love my little run down village in the middle of the countryside, (wish I could drive though) & love the weather!!!!! I do not miss the luxuries we had living in England, I don't miss my business's I do miss going to Bali but one day I will get back there! I don't miss the rat race, I don't miss having neighbours on top of me looking over into my garden, lol, I do not miss anything about England other than family & friends! I do miss a proper kitchen sink!!!!! Also a kitchen would be a miraculous dream, one day my dream will come true!!!!!This is where I want to be, but oh I wish Nigel was here & oh my, I wish I had family close by!!!!!!
Right so what has been happening....... I have had a couple of trips into Gorna one on my own which was nice but I felt the loneliness, having lunch as the only person sitting alone & hunting out the smallest table. The second trip was with Yovo so was a 6 hour marathon again! An hour was spent in the vet & I didn't have Reggie with me!!!! Reggie became ill & a whole lot of non help exists here. Maya's compound turned up that was a good day! So what else, well lets see.....
My trip to Gorna Oryahovitsa the week before last was nice, good weather, I found my way around some other places but trying to find somewhere to have lunch was a nightmare! I really didn't want kebache or meat balls, spicy dry stuff they try to convince you is meat cooked too far is not my idea of lunch.

This place was packed with Bulgarians so you know its good! Or is it just because its the only place to eat for miles!

After hours of wandering round I finally settled for a pizza which was blooming nice & cost for a medium, which was too big ,less than £2 had coffee & coke & the whole thing came to just over 7 leva bargain!!! shall be eating there again especially with Nige when he comes home.

This is a table you see quite common & I play guess who has the money, that doesn't take long!
Normally bosses & workers 2 well fed 2 under fed!

The other table layout you see very often in cities are big men & tiny little sparrow women who push the food around their plate pretending to eat.

Yes I like people watching

So this weeks trip to Gorna was completely different! Reggie had become very ill he had black vomit & had black diarrhea & when I took a picture of his vomit to show the vet he tried to bite me & was warning me away growling. I heeded the warning & went indoors, burst into tears through fear & once again contemplated the sanity of Reggie? This was the third time he had a go & now I don't have him free around other people! I needed to get to the vet, Yovo had phoned the night before to ask if I wanted to go so yep I could get to Kaufland & do some shopping for heavy stuff then it became apparent I needed to get Reg some help. Yovo picked me up at 9am & he said he had to do this this this & this one of which was go to the doctor which I know means sitting & waiting. I managed to organise that I would do my stuff while he did his then meet him under the umbrella for coffee. best laid plans I was in the vets for one flipping hour!!!!! I have never seen so many people in there, all Bulgarian (brill) & as she doesn’t speak English I was having to phone my friend to talk to her then as the phone would come back to me for Mary to tell me what she said she would serve someone else or treat a rabbit etc Oh I was getting a bit antsy, but kept my cool as she was on her own without her normal receptionist lady :D After 3 phone calls & various conversations we managed to get her to understand it wasn’t Sophie, who she knows, that was ill & I came away with 4 different syringes of medicine to inject Reg with over the course of 4 days, yeah right!!!!! Instructions on how & told to get the vet from Kamen out to look at Reg! Thank goodness the whole thing only cost 11 leva as I really knew this was not going to work!!!! After going to meet yovo who wasn’t there I really needed the loo this is not an easy thing for me I am not a fan of very smelly holes in floor with no loo roll, do I really need to go on, I think not! I know a little pub that does a good coffee has a clean toilet & I can sit outside under a cover of vine, Nice!!! After 20 mins I went back to our meeting point to see Yovo walking down from where he parked the car with Anton in tow who we had dropped off on the way!!! Oh he can be very annoying but I didn't complain as the timing was right & I had enjoyed my coffee etc (see I told you I am angry)! Poor Yovo!!!  So after coffee Kaufland & home. I went to meet the Kamen vet in the centre so he could check Reg out, I had the muzzle all ready to put on him so he could do his stuff & intended to get him to give him the injections for that day. I had left the vomit so he could see it & had great expectations. The guy was over 6' tall built strong & youngish, I am 5' tall weak & oldish! He stood 10' away & left me to put the muzzle on then he faffed around saying tighter tighter till Reg got really annoyed & had a right go! At this stage I knew the vet would not go near him now & infact reg managed to get the muzzle of his nose & jaw completely! Too long faffing about!!! Well I burst into tears as I had convinced myself Reg was going to die & no one Brit or Bulgarian will help him as they are all scared of him! Well thank goodness he is on the mend now & my friend Steff who saved Reggies life & gave him to me has posted me some sedatives so if I need to get help I can sedate him & he will be manageable for other people!
Well where has the time gone, I have no idea! Have been poorly & dipping in & out of this blog for a week. needless to say I am still feeling poorly but getting a lot better mentally, still on a short fuse but its a bit longer now. Still have a head full of rubbish talking but I am trying to combat this with cooking so far this week I have made chutneys Jam/Jelly & walnut bars. I have had to rest the last 3 days as even the 5 min trip to the post office has worn me out very annoying!

Atanas & Kamilla have been bringing stuff over for me to eat, this started when I cooked for them so now I give them Jam or cake & this is there offerings.....

Biscuite torte.... No, I would not choose to eat this again I would if they gave it to me then sat watching as I ate the lot, like they did here!
Basicaly I have never even as a small child liked blamongue or however it is spelled! This is that on top of mashed biscuit. Not vomit inducing just not my cup of tea :-(


I  have to say this was lovely!!!!
Mmmmm fried so very bad for you & cold so I nearly threw it away but oh it was soooo nice with my plum jam on it too!
This picture is only half of it I had already eaten the other half  ;D





We have the salubrious SECRURITY sticker on the gate & it has been there for two weeks but still no one has collected my payment. Everyone is concerned that I have extra security, WHY????? because now they are SCARED hahaha when they talk of the security the motion with their hands thick necks & say ohohohoh! So no more breaking in through the roof even while someone is here!!!!

The outside tap has been dripping for a few weeks now & this has been worsening into a very slow stream. I had put the hose on it so that no water was wasted. Then, the other day it decided to give up the ghost, argh, the water was coming out full blast & the tap would not turn off at all.  With the hose on it spurted like a fountain from the side! I was not amused, as is my want these days, but my friends came to my rescue! I phoned Mary to ask for her to arrange for Plamen to come the next day & put in a new tap, this would cost a fortune, but needs must. I ripped up a tea towel & wrapped it around the fountain & fixed it with electrical tape hahaha It didn't fix the problem but it slowed down the rate of loss & saved me money! Well Mary phoned Yovo to tell him & he was round in a short time & turned off the water saying it will be 30 mins, he went off home was back in the 30 mins he has fashioned a rubber seal & low & behold its fixed. Well done Yovo my annoying lovely friend & hero!!!!! So disaster averted panic over & mood lifted for a couple of hours ;D

Right so I think I am getting back on track I will leave it here, as yes this was mamouth :D.....

I Ain't Seen the Sea for a Year

Well here we are in September, where did that year go???? but also oh what a bloody awful long unhappy year !!!!! Thank God I love this country or I would certainly have gone stark raving mad!
I really hope never to have to repeat any of this last 12 months from the date of when my son went back home from his two week holiday with us. That was the last time I saw the sea. We had a lovely 4 days at the coast with my son Daniel & his mates Ad & Rich, I miss him & I miss being able to go places like that in the good weather. All I have to look forward to now is snow & - 20 temps last year was a lot lower lets hope its a warmer winter this year, it will be a miracle if we don't have3' of snow though!!! How blooming depressing is that! I haven’t been out for a meal or into Veliko T or seen Tzaravets, OK enough!!!
Having said all that it was not THAT bad as no one died, our family is still intact & a new arrival will be appearing shortly, so in all the mire there have been many blessings which also means I am blessed too!

This has been an ANGRY week for me, that’s a new one, so another level of disappointment being sorted I guess?
I am alone in my faith here, I have no one who believes in God around me, cor if I thought I was in the wilderness before, this is something else !!!!!!! I don't talk about God to anyone what’s the point? Its ok for people to not believe & express that opinion they don't come under fire or get thought of as weird or strange or just plain MAD, but if you are a Christian, woe betide. So I am alone in everything, it's not a nice place to be, not something I would recommend. So I am ANGRY at the world & everyone in it this week, & it hasn't dissipated as yet :-( Yes I know it's probably all ME, I'M being unreasonable AGAIN, but you know what? I am learning through all these horrid emotional things.

Just had some people round, volunteer’s from BSAPP & a builder to deliver & construct Maya's compound. It's very good & the people all very nice so I had a really nice reprieve from my anger :D I did warn them that the house was heavy but they didn't believe me it was a struggle even with three but they did really well& managed to move it into the compound so Maya has a nice cosy house to sleep in! Poor Reggie it's his house but he won't go in it!!! Nina hit the nail on the head I think when she said he is probably scared to knock his tail on the sides!

The compound will have rubber mat flooring which will stop the mud & be warmer & a camoflage net over the top to give shade from the sun, all in all a nice comfy home for Maya!








I have also just had a phone call from Yovo asking if I want to go to Gorna tomorrow, Off course I said yes lets hope it pulls me out of my anger as opposed to pushing me in even more!

Reggie is in a bad way this week too, he has been nibbling his tail & made it bleed & today he is off his food had to coax him to eat his breakfast then he was a little sick I hope he is going to be ok! He is farting away too & Reggie’s farts are something else Poohweeeeeee So for Reg to not be guzzling his food in seconds he must be under the weather, having said that I put some left over rolls & grape cake on the work top after I gave everyone lunch & forgot the door was open when I took Reg of his chain he snaffled the lot so he must be feeling better! I would say Reggie lurves my cooking but he has also been known to lurve to eat Sophie’s pooh too, not sure what that says about my food :D
Right as I am in a foul mood still, I find I can't be bothered to blog, talk or anything so I will catch up on the last 10 days or so soon.......